go ahead and play me your sad song

Too Taiwanese to be American, and too American to be Taiwanese. It's not like I have to choose one and stick with it, because there's both in me and there always will be, but I'm sick of wanting the former when I want the latter and vice versa. I'm tired of trying to fit in wherever I go and not being satisfied with anything or anyone I become. I'm so tired of trying to maintain a dual personality. I want to be me. Is that so difficult, so much to ask?